My day started out bad today. Aside from the series of irritating encounters at each of the jeepneys that I had ridden, the LRT was particularly enraging. Since I ride the train at the Roosevelt terminal, I get to position myself near the door as much as possible. As I entered the train, there were already people situated near the door, so I squeezed in behind one of the women. On the trip to R.Papa, a girl behind me was pushing my head to its side as she held on the safety handrails. I mean, what the hell, right? Can't she put her arm somewhere below or above my head? Being the mean woman that I am, I actually added tension (whooaaaa) to her arm with my head. I didn't push, because if I did, she would have lost her grip. Anyway, she probably noticed since she moved her arm above my head. Eventually though, her arm returned to its previous position, thus bringing back my rage. To make things worse, as my station came, the ladies (I was in the all-female train) crowded on the door. Despite my "excuse me"s, they persistently pushed their way in and would not let me out. Enraged as I already am, I pushed through with much force, not caring if they were pushed aside or not. I realized that my station was nearer than the station of the woman standing in front of me near the door, which made me even angrier. I walked out of the station fuming, which was not, I admit, a good way to start the day and to serve the Lord. I immediately asked my friend to pray for me, so that my rage would leave me and I would calm down.
Now, as I am typing this, I am calmer. Nonetheless, I can't get over the fact that I didn't act in love and I let fleshy feelings get the best of me. I guess the best thing that I could do at the moment is to pray.
Lord God, I'm sorry. I have sinned. I have sinned against You and against my neighbor. I have not acted like Jesus. I have not shown those people the love that You have given me. I thank You for the forgiveness that You have given me because of Jesus' blood. I pray now that You would grant in me a heart willing to follow in Your footsteps. Anoint me with the Holy Spirit so that I could overcome my fleshy nature and act more in love. I pray that joy would replace my rage every time I ride a public vehicle, especially the LRT. Bless the people and keep them safe. I pray that all of them would be saved as I have been saved. Give me patience, dear Lord. Help me walk in love. I pray this is Jesus' mighty name, Amen.
